The way you point out that anything I said is merely the excuse to meet you.
The way we're always silent at night phone call and hardly know what to say.
The way you say 'iya?' after a long silence.
The way you're barely able to answer 'kangen ya?' and only make inaudible sound.
The way you ruined my effort to build sweet moments......
Consider my heart taken :)
Selasa, 10 Februari 2015
Rabu, 28 Januari 2015
Kenapa Rayna Dilahirin Caesar?
Today is my oldest brother's birthday. I haven't sent any birthday greetings to him and instead, I called my mom, crying my heart loud.
"Ma, mama masih inget waktu ngelahirin Mas Bayun?"
"Masih."
"Gimana ceritanya, Ma?"
"Ya, lancar kok, banyak yang nungguin. Ada dokter, bidan, suster, papa," she answered, "Ngelahirinnya gak sesakit yang Mama bayangin, padahal kepala Mas Bayun besar. Tapi beratnya ringan, cuma 2,8 kg.. Terus, Mama pikir Mama mau kok ngelahirin lagi..."
"Terus waktu ngelahirin Mas Hanief gimana?"
"Mama dibantu pembantunya bidan, soalnya bidannya masih tidur.. Mas Hanief dilahirinnya tengah malem sih.."
"Waktu ngelahirin Rayna, Ma? Rayna kok dilahirinnya caesar?"
Yes, I was born c-sectioned. That made me think that every normal birth is surgical, until when I was 7th grade I finally found out the truth.
"Dokternya yang bilang kalo Rayna harus dicaesar.."
"Kenapa, Ma? Rayna sungsang?"
"Gak, kata dokternya kalo normal bakalan lama.."
I didn't know why I cried.
Well, actually I know. My mom has been hurt so brutally for being herself, and she didn't get the chance to prove that she doesn't deserve such treatment. I cried because I can't protect her. I cried because I couldn't take her away from her pain.
I called both of my brothers, but the second older connected first. He confusedly and constantly asked "Kamu nangis kenapa, Na?"
I just answered, "Rayna kesel!"
I also told him that I missed my nephew, Reksa, so much that it hurts me.
It's difficult to have a family all grown up and all grown apart. You get scared that they wouldn't care about you the way it used to. Well, they will. They have a new family, a new life. But they sure as hell won't forget you, if you keep them not to.
And sometimes, it's okay to show your vulnerability so they know they could love you....
Cheers.
"Ma, mama masih inget waktu ngelahirin Mas Bayun?"
"Masih."
"Gimana ceritanya, Ma?"
"Ya, lancar kok, banyak yang nungguin. Ada dokter, bidan, suster, papa," she answered, "Ngelahirinnya gak sesakit yang Mama bayangin, padahal kepala Mas Bayun besar. Tapi beratnya ringan, cuma 2,8 kg.. Terus, Mama pikir Mama mau kok ngelahirin lagi..."
"Terus waktu ngelahirin Mas Hanief gimana?"
"Mama dibantu pembantunya bidan, soalnya bidannya masih tidur.. Mas Hanief dilahirinnya tengah malem sih.."
"Waktu ngelahirin Rayna, Ma? Rayna kok dilahirinnya caesar?"
Yes, I was born c-sectioned. That made me think that every normal birth is surgical, until when I was 7th grade I finally found out the truth.
"Dokternya yang bilang kalo Rayna harus dicaesar.."
"Kenapa, Ma? Rayna sungsang?"
"Gak, kata dokternya kalo normal bakalan lama.."
I didn't know why I cried.
Well, actually I know. My mom has been hurt so brutally for being herself, and she didn't get the chance to prove that she doesn't deserve such treatment. I cried because I can't protect her. I cried because I couldn't take her away from her pain.
I called both of my brothers, but the second older connected first. He confusedly and constantly asked "Kamu nangis kenapa, Na?"
I just answered, "Rayna kesel!"
I also told him that I missed my nephew, Reksa, so much that it hurts me.
It's difficult to have a family all grown up and all grown apart. You get scared that they wouldn't care about you the way it used to. Well, they will. They have a new family, a new life. But they sure as hell won't forget you, if you keep them not to.
And sometimes, it's okay to show your vulnerability so they know they could love you....
Cheers.
Senin, 19 Januari 2015
Diet Mayo
I planned to start 13 Days Mayo Diet by tomorrow. I already did my grocery shopping! :)
Here's why I'm confident that I'll go through the next 13 days diet just fine:
- I'm fine with skipping or having very little breakfast and or lunch (no it's not a good habit). I've been in a dental internship for four months now and that's keeping me from having a decent lunch, especially. Lol
- I'm a 'living alone student'. I just eat what I bought. So maybe I'll just have very little distraction if I'm strict at what I buy..
- I enjoy afternoon sports as well, like aerobics, 2 hours treadmill and static bike on fitness center, jogging at UGM Student Quad, teehee :D
What scares me, though:
- The 13 Days Mayo Diet is probably Indonesian made. It's said that it's from Mayo Clinic of USA, but hey, they didn't say about the restriction nor the 13 days menu. If you think that this diet is clinical/scientific, you're wrong, nobody has found an English-Languaged journal about it...
- I love salty/savory menus more than the sweet ones! :(
- The restrictions from this diet, knowing that this diet is for detoxicating your body (and the weight loss is merely a bonus), are SALT (no salt whatsoever), processed SUGAR (I can live without it), and CARBO. I didn't find any carbo food on the menu.
- Baked, smoked, olive-oil fried, or boiled chicken, egg, and meat is on the menu. But, because I love salty/savory food more than ever, I decided to exclude chicken and meat from it. I can't eat them without the decent spice, I can't have them tasteless :(
So I decided to have a boiled and raw vege, boiled egg, fruit, yoghurt (I planned to buy the plain yoghurt, it's 0.9 USD more expensive than the tasteful one, sigh), and greentea. I can't even have a whole wheat toast in it! :(
Well. My target is 5-8kgs reduced. I wonder how my body would look like if I weigh 42, or maybe 40 kgs. Lol. (I'm petite, 154cm/47.5 kg. My fat belly and thighs are annoying.)
The culinary traveling is off my plans for 13 days! Will update soon, wish me luck!
Here's why I'm confident that I'll go through the next 13 days diet just fine:
- I'm fine with skipping or having very little breakfast and or lunch (no it's not a good habit). I've been in a dental internship for four months now and that's keeping me from having a decent lunch, especially. Lol
- I'm a 'living alone student'. I just eat what I bought. So maybe I'll just have very little distraction if I'm strict at what I buy..
- I enjoy afternoon sports as well, like aerobics, 2 hours treadmill and static bike on fitness center, jogging at UGM Student Quad, teehee :D
What scares me, though:
- The 13 Days Mayo Diet is probably Indonesian made. It's said that it's from Mayo Clinic of USA, but hey, they didn't say about the restriction nor the 13 days menu. If you think that this diet is clinical/scientific, you're wrong, nobody has found an English-Languaged journal about it...
- I love salty/savory menus more than the sweet ones! :(
- The restrictions from this diet, knowing that this diet is for detoxicating your body (and the weight loss is merely a bonus), are SALT (no salt whatsoever), processed SUGAR (I can live without it), and CARBO. I didn't find any carbo food on the menu.
- Baked, smoked, olive-oil fried, or boiled chicken, egg, and meat is on the menu. But, because I love salty/savory food more than ever, I decided to exclude chicken and meat from it. I can't eat them without the decent spice, I can't have them tasteless :(
So I decided to have a boiled and raw vege, boiled egg, fruit, yoghurt (I planned to buy the plain yoghurt, it's 0.9 USD more expensive than the tasteful one, sigh), and greentea. I can't even have a whole wheat toast in it! :(
Well. My target is 5-8kgs reduced. I wonder how my body would look like if I weigh 42, or maybe 40 kgs. Lol. (I'm petite, 154cm/47.5 kg. My fat belly and thighs are annoying.)
The culinary traveling is off my plans for 13 days! Will update soon, wish me luck!
Kamis, 16 Januari 2014
Perbedaan dan Persamaan Benedict Cumberbatch dan Tom Hiddleston
Persamaan:
1. Dua-duanya aktor Inggris (bukan Skotlandia, bukan Irlandia, bukan Wales, tapi Inggris)
2. Tingginya di atas 180 cm (Swoon! Benedict 184 cm, Tom 188 cm)
3. Dua-duanya berambut keriting.
4. Dua-duanya berambut coklat gelap saat ini, dan itu bukan warna asli rambut mereka (Benedict merah, Tom pirang)
5. Dua-duanya jomblo.... (Guys, I love you, but I really want to see you settle with the right girl. Terutama Benedict sama pacar terakhirnya pacaran 12 tahun terus putus -.-")
6. Dua-duanya friendly dan sangat periang sama interviewer (Apalagi Benedict. Percampuran yang tepat antara muka cool sama attitude gak tau malu ;;))
7. Dua-duanya sedang berusia 30-an (Benedict 37, Tom 32)
8. Dua-duanya main di War Horse.
9. Dua-duanya punya logat dan suara yang bikin cewek2 pingsan.
10. Dua-duanya punya nama belakang yang aneh...
Perbedaan:
1. Benedict melejit banget lewat TV Show (Sherlock), Tom melejit lewat film (Thor, sebagai Loki)
2. Benedict di Sherlock karakternya cool banget dan cenderung emotionless, padahal aslinya cablak banget dan sering outshined pewawancaranya dalam soal ngelucu. Sedangkan Tom di Thor karakternya tengil, lucu, dan bikin orang2 kesel, padahal aslinya ramah dan cenderung 'gak mulai ngelucu duluan'.
2. Tom jauh lebih kurus daripada Benedict (ah, they're still drop-dead sexy).
3. Benedict lebih cablak, humoris, dan nggak tau malu kalo diinterview, kalo Tom lebih segan, pemalu, gak mulai nyablak duluan, tapi selalu ramah dan punya tawa yang lebar.
4. Sama-sama jarang barechested di depan kamera sih.. tapi Tom beberapa kali nude di dalam film. Kalo Benedict setauku cuma pernah bottom-nude di Atonement.
5. Tom bermata biru terang, kalo Benedict bermata hijau terang kebiruan (kebayang betapa bagusnya...)
5. Tom lagi sering tampil dengan jenggot dan kumis, kalo Benedict lebih sering clean-shaven.
Dua2nya sama2 bikin aku gila akhir2 ini.. lol... tapi sekarang lagi ketagihan Benedict soalnya mukanya bikin mabokk (seksi abis), perannya di Sherlock cool banget, dan orangnya di kehidupan nyata ternyata cablak banget. Haha.
Pertama kali ketagihan British Gentlemen gara2 Matthew Macfadyen di Pride and Prejudice. Gantengnya, suaranya, gesturnya sampe sekarang masih bikin mabok...
Hidup Birtish Gentlemen! :D
1. Dua-duanya aktor Inggris (bukan Skotlandia, bukan Irlandia, bukan Wales, tapi Inggris)
2. Tingginya di atas 180 cm (Swoon! Benedict 184 cm, Tom 188 cm)
3. Dua-duanya berambut keriting.
4. Dua-duanya berambut coklat gelap saat ini, dan itu bukan warna asli rambut mereka (Benedict merah, Tom pirang)
5. Dua-duanya jomblo.... (Guys, I love you, but I really want to see you settle with the right girl. Terutama Benedict sama pacar terakhirnya pacaran 12 tahun terus putus -.-")
6. Dua-duanya friendly dan sangat periang sama interviewer (Apalagi Benedict. Percampuran yang tepat antara muka cool sama attitude gak tau malu ;;))
7. Dua-duanya sedang berusia 30-an (Benedict 37, Tom 32)
8. Dua-duanya main di War Horse.
9. Dua-duanya punya logat dan suara yang bikin cewek2 pingsan.
10. Dua-duanya punya nama belakang yang aneh...
Perbedaan:
1. Benedict melejit banget lewat TV Show (Sherlock), Tom melejit lewat film (Thor, sebagai Loki)
2. Benedict di Sherlock karakternya cool banget dan cenderung emotionless, padahal aslinya cablak banget dan sering outshined pewawancaranya dalam soal ngelucu. Sedangkan Tom di Thor karakternya tengil, lucu, dan bikin orang2 kesel, padahal aslinya ramah dan cenderung 'gak mulai ngelucu duluan'.
2. Tom jauh lebih kurus daripada Benedict (ah, they're still drop-dead sexy).
3. Benedict lebih cablak, humoris, dan nggak tau malu kalo diinterview, kalo Tom lebih segan, pemalu, gak mulai nyablak duluan, tapi selalu ramah dan punya tawa yang lebar.
4. Sama-sama jarang barechested di depan kamera sih.. tapi Tom beberapa kali nude di dalam film. Kalo Benedict setauku cuma pernah bottom-nude di Atonement.
5. Tom bermata biru terang, kalo Benedict bermata hijau terang kebiruan (kebayang betapa bagusnya...)
5. Tom lagi sering tampil dengan jenggot dan kumis, kalo Benedict lebih sering clean-shaven.
Dua2nya sama2 bikin aku gila akhir2 ini.. lol... tapi sekarang lagi ketagihan Benedict soalnya mukanya bikin mabokk (seksi abis), perannya di Sherlock cool banget, dan orangnya di kehidupan nyata ternyata cablak banget. Haha.
Pertama kali ketagihan British Gentlemen gara2 Matthew Macfadyen di Pride and Prejudice. Gantengnya, suaranya, gesturnya sampe sekarang masih bikin mabok...
Hidup Birtish Gentlemen! :D
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